For 37 years, Josh Smallwood didn’t reject God — he just couldn’t believe that Jesus was the answer. Raised with a general belief in God but deeply skeptical of Christianity, Josh searched for truth through reason, history, and evidence. Jesus felt too simple. Too easy. Too unlikely to be real.

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But then something profound happened. In a quiet, ordinary moment, Josh had a vision of Jesus that forever altered his understanding of God. He didn’t see condemnation. He didn’t hear judgment. What he encountered was love — a love so intense and personal that it left him undone. A love that felt closer than any human relationship he had ever known. A love that reframed his past pain, his grief, and even the moments when he wasn’t walking with God at all.